Mum shares heartbreaking poems penned by daughter before death
- Credit: Mel Oakes-Buckingham
The mum of a teenager whose fight with mental health was reignited by lockdown has shared her daughter's heartbreaking poems to highlight the hidden impact of the pandemic.
Emily Oakes-Buckingham was 13 when she died in Addenbrooke's Hospital in Cambridge a week after an incident at her home on New Year's Day.
Her parents believed the Sprowston High School pupil had "turned a corner" in her fight with anxiety before the pandemic.
However she found lockdown increasingly took a huge toll on her mental health.
Following an inquest held into her death last week, mum Mel Oakes-Buckingham has shared two emotional poems her daughter penned in hopes of raising awareness of the impact the pandemic has had on young people.
In the poems, Emily describes the anxiety and isolation she felt - but also emphasised that it is "not forever".
Mrs Oakes-Buckingham read one of the poems, called 'It's Not Forever' during the hearing, which was held at Norfolk Coroners Court.
And following the inquest, she shared a further poem with this newspaper.
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Mrs Oakes-Buckingham said: "Lockdown had a huge impact on her, she had really turned a corner before then.
"She was a force of nature - if she walked into a room you could not miss her, she was so much fun."
But beneath the cheery demeanour she showed in public was a devastating fight with anxiety which was worsened by the lockdowns.
Mrs Oakes-Buckingham said she was particularly stressed about having to catch up with school time missed and that this pressure took its toll.
She said: "Only we really saw the anxious, stressed Emily. We developed a really strong emotional relationship.
"I did absolutely everything I could for her but do believe she could have had more help."
In her poem, Emily wrote:
"It feels like forever,
trapped in your head feeling alone
cold hearted dark minded,
wanting to escape but not really wanting to die,
just want to be happy,
want everything to be fine again,
but you can only wish,
that it's not forever"
In the inquest on September 24 coroner Christopher Long gave a narrative conclusion.
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