The daughter of Only Fools and Horses star Roger Lloyd Pack pays moving tribute to him and reveals his final words
13:37 20 January 2014
The actress daughter of Only Fools and Horses star Roger Lloyd Pack has paid a moving tribute to him and revealed how his final words were, “I’m fine.”
Mr Lloyd Pack, who played Trigger, died at his home on Wednesday, January 15 from pancreatic cancer.
His daughter Emily Lloyd has described his bravery throughout the illness, how he supported her career and how their shared sense of humour helped them to connect.
Writing for the Daily Mail, Ms Lloyd, who was nominated for a BAFTA for her performance in the 1987 film Wish You Were Here, described the day of her father’s death.
She said: “I took a phone call no child wants to receive. It was my father’s wife Jehanie urging me to come to their house because I might want to see him.
“At first the importance of her request didn’t register. The last time I had spoken to dad was two weeks ago. He had been suffering from pancreatic cancer but he said he felt fine.
“When I got to his bedside I immediately saw that his condition had taken a dramatic turn for the worse. I had braced myself to be strong but he was unrecognisable as the father I knew.
“Jehanie and dad’s three children with her were around his bedside, and although there was also a doctor and paramedics there too, the room was quiet.”
She added: “I didn’t know how to react. Should I try to make light of the situation, or say something profound? Someone suggested making a cup of tea and when sugar was mentioned, I spontaneously sang the line ‘Sugar for my honey’, to which dad’s son Hartley continued, ‘Sweets for my sweet’. It was a brief attempt to make light of a sombre situation.
“When dad was first diagnosed with his illness last year, he approached it with such positivity. He listened to conventional doctors but wanted to take the holistic route as well, seeking out alternative treatments. He continued to work until it was physically impossible and took an active part in campaigns dear to his heart.
“He took that positivity into his final hours. Fittingly, his last words were: ‘I’m fine.’”
Ms Lloyd also praised her father’s acting ability but added: “Dad considered the success of Only Fools And Horses a curse as well as a blessing. I still get people shouting out, ‘There’s Trigger’s daughter’, so I often wonder what it must have been like for him.”
She said Mr Lloyd Pack broke up with her mother Shelia Hughes when she was 18 months old but she had a happy childhood and was pleased they became friends over the last three years.
She said: “We used to play a game together when I was young called ‘Who can make the other laugh first’. We’d sit there staring at each other, trying to make the other giggle. Much to my annoyance I always lost.
“We shared the same quirky sense of humour and would often find humour in things that other people did not.”
Ms Lloyd said her father was very supportive throughout her career and was passionate about left wing politics but, “he never rammed his views down my throat.”
She said, in 2007, he refused to give her phone number to Russell Brand during a radio interview.
She added: “It was amazing to see how bravely he faced his mortality. He never once passed on his anxieties or fears to his family. More than anything, however, I cling on to his final words. I really do hope ‘he’s fine’.”